I have been having issues.
OK .. I have always had issues but this seem to be getting worse. I struggle with leaving the house. Seriously struggle.
I put off going to the grocery store. I don't want to drive down the road. I don't want to meet up with friends. I don't want to get my haircut or go shopping. I just want to be ............ safe.
Honey sometimes insists that we ....... go. But I want to stay at home. I try but some days are not good.
I don't hyperventilate. There is no heart palpitations. Just fear. Doubt. Self-loathing.
I feel like I am being judged.
I feel like I am alone.
So ... if I back away from an invitation or don't participate in a group .... please don't be offended.
I need to get my feet firmly on the ground.
And there is an earthquake within me.