The Hermit within me

I have been having issues.

OK .. I have always had issues but this seem to be getting worse.  I struggle with leaving the house.  Seriously struggle. 

I put off going to the grocery store.  I don't want to drive down the road.  I don't want to meet up with friends.  I don't want to get my haircut or go shopping. I just want to be ............ safe. 

Honey sometimes insists that we ....... go.  But I want to stay at home.  I try but some days are not good.

I don't hyperventilate.  There is no heart palpitations.  Just fear. Doubt. Self-loathing.

I feel like I am being judged.

I feel like I am alone.

So ... if I back away from an invitation or don't participate in a group .... please don't be offended.

I need to get my feet firmly on the ground. 

And there is an earthquake within me.


Carrie Nicole said…
Sending you hugs Cathy. The past two years have been a struggle for me and I always joke about what a hermit I am but it honestly breaks my heart. It's not who I am but I went through a couple of stressful and traumatic things and locked myself away I guess as a way to cope. I understand the fear, the doubt, the are not alone!

Brighter, less hermit-like days ahead for both of us XX

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